havent log into this space for a while, and now lj has become a shopping community? wow. maybe its time i switch back to blogger or, tumblr so that i can pretend that im part of the "in" crowd.  ok i think i'll do that. need a space to post all travel pics so that i can constantly remind myself to save money for travelling. 

have i mentioned that i really really really x10 want to travel to Egypt/middle eastern countries, sri lanka, india. u knw, all those exotic places but they are damn expensive. sigh guess i start with SEA 1st. 

maybe bintan again next year. im eyeing nirwana resort hotel. they have awesome swimming pools and an infinity pool!!!! 
INFINITY POOL. so chio.  

anyw i hope the pictures im planning to take using those 35mm film turns out well! yes 4d3n in a 2* hotel in a developing country, im all ready for u. 

ok maybe not.... :\ sigh.  bali, u better be postcard perfect. 

was browsing through fb photo, scrolled down all the way to prom and thats when i want to destroy all the evidence that i used to be so fat. i mean i still consider myself fat now but moderately fat. it used to be EXTREMELY fat.  okay no, its better to leave it there. in fact i should print one and stick it everywhere so that the next time i crave for hotcakes/get hungry etc etc i will whip out the picture and tell myself its not worth it.  omg all my friends are evil cos i used to be so fat and no one bother telling me that!!! walau eh u all call yourselves my friends!!! fine, i didnt really ask for opinions either... 

its so so difficult to lose weight. but nvm after exams we shall see. 

sometimes i what people post online, and i'll go "why the fuck are u still complaining?" i mean no one has a perfect life right? you can whine about it but at the end of the day we all have to go through it. like i always whine about uncompleted work but i still hv to sit down at the table and do it what (and of cos whine some more while at it lol) . and pls stop all the talk about ending your life, because the people who wants to do it just go ahead and end it. they dont whine to the entire cyber world. im not trying to say these people should go kill themselves, they probably need some attention but i always think that we should be the one that loves ourselves most? except maybe our parents. 

come on, no one's life is perfect. if you have money for branded goods then YOU ARE NOT POOR. there is a difference between relative poverty and absolute poverty u knw. u are just insulting the millions of african kids and the homeless on singapore's streets. if you are really poor, then why the hell are u not spending within your limits? then dont u think u deserve to be poor? 

ok in 2 days time i will hv my 1st exam OMG. im not really thinking straight right now cos regression has clouded my brain. 
everywhere i turn i see Yi, Y cap, Y bar and the stupid summation sign.

fine, u may think that whats the big deal? exam only last for a wk right? ya me thinks so too.
but apparently, thats not all! tada, i have 

short ans qns, 1000 word essay, design a brochure on HD to submit for genes and soc.
2500 essay, cultural analysis on 10 oct.

ok so ya, only 4 things to do right? no! still have weekly assignments and tutorials to hand in. add that on top of all the self-studying i need to do cos my lecturer/tutor sucks big time. sometimes i wonder why i even bother going for lectures. i guess its this kiasu mentality that u be missing out something when u dont. i really should apply what i learn from econs to real life situations.

for example, utility gain from going to lectures is obviously lower then skipping it, opp cost of attending lect is higher than not.why am i still going! i should write out my utility function and maximise it so see whats the optimal amt of hours i should spend on lectures. i think my indifference curves should be positive, upward sloping assuming i plot others on the y-axis and lectures on the x axis cos lectures are a bad and others are normal goods. so my indiff curves are strictly convex.  

so my point is, why am i still going for lectures?!

ok bye, i need to go look at Circuit of Culture now fml. 

Yi = B0 + B1X + Ui = Yi cap + Ui cap bye.

1st lecture and the soci readings for it cost me $2. WTF right. its ok if its boring, but must it be so difficult to comprehend? one page i have like 10 words that i never seen before in my life -.-

genes and society not as bad as i thought. but well i only have been thru 1 intro lecture so i cant probably cant say much abt the module except that so far, the issues discussed are quite thought-provoking.

macroecons so far so good. i like money and therefore calculating them, whether its fictitious or not gets me high! anything is great if u put a dollar sign in front.

okay so far no major complains for this sem except that i hate that 2500 word essay OMG and that 2/5 classes requires me to present my ans.
fine,  it doesnt sound that bad, but its actually very stressful cos the qns are quite difficult. but well, its not my 1st time attending such classes and its not that embarrassing to get it wrong. unless ur tutorial class all smart asses and enthu shits la. omg pls no.

oh, MY 4 DAY WK BECAME A 3 DAY ONE WTF WTF WTF LA!!!! cos i cant fit in one tutorial. so on like odd/even wks i only go to sch on monday for ONE FREAKING LESSON--- 1 HOUR LONG. but i guess its not that bad, it ends 2 and my tuition starts 4, still can slack ard a bit or make my tuition start earlier. i mean i need to step out of the house on monday anyw.

ooh time for me to go for brisk-walking !

off to bintan tmr with 3 bags - my eastpak, one canvas bag for snacks, and a small sling bag

walao like look so auntie pls!i dont know what i put inside my eastpak but it looks like its abt to burst. i think i brought too much clothes. but aiya must bring like one extra set u know! im kiasu like that.

did mod preference exercise alr! hope i get everything la. tue,wed,fri. not bad right? lucky its not mon wed fri.
its weird, i dont knw why but my free day is always on thurs.whatever im not complaining!  i just dont have any ue to take. maybe i'll go take SDE mods.

actually im lazy. i feel like staying at home instead of going to bintan! 2 nights w/o kang xi lai le! ok i will survive~

finally went swimming for the 1st time in like, 4 years at least? omg i still rmb how to swim leh! went bishan swimming complex with wh when it was still some light rain. thought the place would be empty since its a sch day but no lor pls got all those kids learning swimming.

the best part abt swimming is that u dont feel that tired when u are in the water so u keep swimming and swimming. this is unlike jogging when u get all sweaty and breathless. ok maybe i didnt swim fast enough but whatever , this morning i woke up and i cant even lift my arms properly! omg so happy!!! next wk i aim to complete 10 more laps than thurs :D

but omg i ate back everything today la!!! plus im going to have dimsum on sunday lehhh



i really wish i live beside the swimming complex so that i dont have to pack so many things to the pool!

almost a week of not moving except some sit-ups/push-ups. i squeeze my thighs and i feel the fats :/ looking forward to cycling tmr + swimming for next wk! swimming is such an expensive activity. i need to buy swimsuit, sunblock, shampoo+conditioner for swimming and pay a dollar plus each time i enter the swimming complex.

anyw, my fav food!!!

im switching from jogging to swimming!

i really do like jogging, but it looks like i wont be able to jog for a month or 2 at least. why? cos i think i injured my knee while jogging. its starting to hurt occasionally/during jogs. walao so sad this is my 2nd day of not jogging and i alr feel like its been ages since i jog. in short, i feel unhealthy and fat :/

its really so sad!! i wont say my stamina is freaking awesome but its definitely better than before! from not even lasting 6 rounds(I JOG BLOODY SLOW), to 8, to 10 then 13 or more :( my months of effort!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i love the park near my house! i love how my thighs ache when i run up the slope.last time i run 3 rounds i want to die alr i took short cuts some more lor! now i run at least 6, no short cuts :( i recognise all the familiar faces alr can!

sometimes i think my knee hurts cos im not running on the proper track. but the ahpek at the park also run on the same ground why their knee no problem?!! im depressed pls -.-
if i dont jog for a month or 2 i will have to start all over again leh!

and jogging is good cos u can jog anywhere! swimming must go to the swimming pool, very hard to continue once sch starts. maybe i'll alt btw swimming and jogging once my knee gets better.

shit man i dont even knw if i still rmb how to swim -.- and my stamina in the water must be shitty ttm. ok i see it as a challenge. must be able to swim 18 laps before sch starts. so that all the money i spent purchasing swimsuit and goggles will be worth it okay!